A Lesson From Jesus

Hi you guys!

First of all, I need to say something to you...I need to say 'thank you'. And that is to EVERY single one of the 5 people who follow this blog because I know who reads this. Thank you for your patience, your undying love, your beauty and most important, your passion for God. All of you have taught me a great deal this past week (and most of you know it has been a hard week for me). Just thank you for being there to talk, to listen, to support me, and even to those who have not done that...to patiently teach a desperately needed lesson about the Lord's sufficiency in my own life.

God has been speaking to my heart SO much lately, you guys. He has been teaching me some VERY important lessons about just how important He is. He really IS all I need! All my life I have wanted someone to love me (be it a family member, a friend, or a guy), I've always felt like someone needed to love me just for being me. But it was when I lost all the love and support in my life that I finally found that God is the only one who can love me perfectly. Everyone is going to let us down...except for Jesus.

I have entered into something so beautiful, so pure, and so romantic I cannot even put it into words! I have entered into a divine romance with the Lord of the universe and I have begun to pour my heart out to Him and Him alone. Guess what? He is there! In every way I could ever dream of. Not simply in a spiritual way, but also physically, mentally, and emotionally. He has been singing over me in His loving voice that I am special and His unique jewel. I need no one besides God!

Anna, I know you posted on this on our public blog and thank you for doing that! That was seriously EXACTLY what I needed to hear because, gosh, I miss it so easily. Thank you for posting and recapping exactly what God has been doing for me lately. Here is the verse God has been speaking to me with:

Isaiah 40:28-31 "Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and you men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."

It's SO amazing and hard to believe that God, the God who is 'everlasting' and 'Creator of the ends of the earth' also delights in me but now that I see it, I know it! Here is the song He wants me to believe. I just listen to this song and KNOW in my heart it's true. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CUGTIWCFyo

I'm Jesus' at last. After 17 years of searching, my heart finally found home.

I love ALL of you!

Hannah <><

Photo Shoot

Heh...I did a photo shoot of myself. :) I know it's kindof silly but I was having a ton of fun so...hopefully you'll like these pictures. <3>

Dress

Yay you guys! I'm so excited. <3<3<3 I just got what is my favorite dress of all time for my senior recital. My recital will be probably a week before my high school graduation in May, and my birthday will be right before it. That will be the most amazing week of my life! :) The dress is a pink, floor length gown with silver sparkles and a beautiful train! There are layers upon layers of silk in the skirt of the dress. Yay! :)

God is so good. He has just been giving so much peace to my heart about my life and I really feel in the center of His hand. I've been reading Psalms, Proverbs, and a gospel which has been a great blessing to me.

Anyways...today I am infinitely happy...almost. Being able to talk to my best friend would make me completely happy! But...otherwise my heart is at peace with everyone. :sighs: Jesus, I love you!

Guess what?!

Guess what? A certain person means the world to me! <3

God says...

What I say: "I cannot make it through this."

What God says: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. You can do ALL things through my strength. I am faithful; I will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear." 2 Corinthians 12:9/Philippians 4:13/1 Corinthians 10:13

I can feel Jesus' arms around us. I am completely satisfied, joyful, and happy. And guess what! I love all of you with all my heart. <3 Lean into Him, you won't be disappointed.

MEEE!!!...and someone's birthday wish.

First, I wanted to say happy birthday to my best friend in the whole world. <3>

Secondly, here are a few random pics I took of myself in the mirror. They don't have the perfect background but I like them because they are really accurate representations of what I look like. :) Idk. Let me know what you think, peeps.

Also like this pic from todays' concert that Louis' mom took:

I wanted to tell you something REALLY cool God did for me yesterday. So at church in the morning, I was talking to this older man who had heart disease and who I had been praying over for the past few weeks. His granddaughter was also diagnosed with leukemia. Well, he went up to me this morning with this huge hug and smile and said, "God healed us both!" His granddaughter had gone for a blood count and had NO leukemia at all showing anymore. On what I understood to be the same day, he went to test his heart and it was HEALED. And he had been like...dying of heart disease. God is just SO amazing! I was praising Him all day because I thought that was just so beautiful. :)

This is a Scripture He placed on my heart today that encouraged me. It is humbling to realize how loving, caring, and patient God is...but is is also the most beautiful thing in the world. I really just want to get my mind more and more around His amazing love for me.

"He knows us inside and out, keeps in mind that we're made of mud. Men and women don't live very long; like wildflowers they spring up and blossom, but a storm snuffs them out just as quickly, leaving nothing to show they were here. God's love, though, is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear him, making everything right for them and their children as they follow His covenant ways and remember to do whatever He said."

My Ring

I just bought a new purity ring. It is red...my favorite color...and I think it's really beautiful. :) I also just got a temporary glitter tattoo on my arm that reminds me of me and my best friend. Here are pictures:

Songs that make me cry

Wow, you guys. These songs...they perfectly describe the journey that has taken place in my heart these past couple of years. I'm still not healed and still have a long ways to go, but He is amazing. Just listen to all of them in succession if you have the time...and then give me your feedback.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HlkV-MNl0qY (you guys don't even realize...except maybe one person...how much this SHOULD have been my song. It makes me cry so hard because I can just hear the voices of what could and should have been...but God)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIczlV9bjpY (even after I dealt with keeping God's most precious gift to me, there were so many more scars to deal with. Sometimes the only way to heal is to face the past first. That's what this summer taught me.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jd896jwz8zA (this is the song God gave my heart for the person who shattered my heart...someone who is a part of my family and absolutely gorgeous...this person now will only know my love and forgiveness from this day forward)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BP7KMrPp3g&feature=related (after dealing with everything, God finally told me this)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=at9z-ewIhOo (last month, God told me this)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nig4Rbeoqwk (and now, this is where I find myself...this day, this moment. Jesus is finally EVERYTHING!!!)

"I will praise You! Your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:4

My Poem

Hi you guys!

Can you believe it's almost fall? noooo...! :pouty face: lol. I really don't want school to come but I was just thinking about how amazing it is because He has a HUGE adventure for us this next year. I know I've told you Jeremiah 29:11 a ton, but I was just pondering what it really says again this afternoon. God spoke to my heart! Please read these words:

I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. 12"When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. 13-14"When you come looking for me, you'll find me. "Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." God's Decree. "I'll turn things around for you."

Can you believe God actually says that? That is just SO gorgeous. I honestly cannot believe He cares THAT much about me and my life. I love that part, "God's decree: 'I'll turn things around for you.' I have seen Him do that for me over and over again and I am eternally grateful!

I wrote this poem and I thought I would post it because maybe it will encourage you. I hope so, anyway. This is sortof what God told me through this whole summer...and now I have reached the end...where beauty begins. I could never be happier, being sheltered in Jesus' open arms.

A Sunset Is A Sunrise

Hannah Hughes

Hazey sunbeams cloud the sky,

Where the birds earlier did fly,

But now it is still,

And the day ends with a chill!

The sun sets near me,

Calling out pain excrutiating

And I then must lift I my eyes to Thee,

My loving, all-knowing King!

A chapter of my life is done,

A dream is set aside,

I have nothing...I've come undone

And in me I question if You abide!

Oh, but You are not far from my cries,

And You come running

While even from the Sovereign eyes

Many tears are flowing!

As depression fills my empty heart,

Temptation to end the greatest gift

Cloud in and try to lift

Any remaining joyful part.

Yet, Your strong hand

Gently, carefully touches me,

As you lovingly reveal what's planned,

And gently give your command!

"I have pain for you, beautiful,"

You whisper in the wind,

"But don't worry, though you've sinned,

For I died to pay the debt in full."

"I died for your loved ones' pain,

I died to take away the stain,

Since I suffered death, I gave you life,

Do not end it in strife!"

Still, my eyes are lifted to the ever darkning-sky

And again I question "Why?"

I beg God to let me push every other door,

And with a hurt smile, He whispers, "Sure!"

So I search and I dig,

While confusion floods my head,

Why is there no answer...so beautiful and big?

Why do my tears continue to be shed?

Then, again, He does come,

Though He has been there all along

And all I can now do is towards Him move,

To weakly reach out to Jesus, God's Heavenly Song!

Without a single question, He cradles me in His arms!

Holding my head close, stroking my hair,

I now know He is the One who can shelter me from all alarms!

He is the one who will give me joy to share!

Still, the sun continues to slowly set,

And I know this world is one to which I must bid farewell!

All my hurting needs are met,

And finally all is well!

Oh, then how the sky breaks forth in glorious sun!

Drying my clothes that were soaked with the rain of grief,

And puzzling, I look to the Son,

Wondering at this beautiful relief!

Oh the kindness of that face,

That gently wipes away disgrace,

And smiles, "My little daughter, searching all that time!

While I was always waiting to be Your morning sublime!"

"I make all things new!

I heal all things beautifully!

See now your scars,

That are left forever on your heart!"

"They are beautiful with my love,

I have branded them there that no one might forget,

What my grace has brought you through,

And that now you might enjoy rest!

For, each time there is a sunset below,

There is a sunrise above!

They are one and the same,

According to which shore you walk: hate or love!"

Now, hand in hand, we walk on together.

And the peace and joy we know is forever!

Oh the sunsets are still there, but as God's hope arises,

The sunsets are now glorious sunrises!

I love you all!
Hannah

Yay!

I LOVE YOU!!!

I love you guys. Just :sighs: really, I do. You are all the most amazing people ever. I have no idea why God even privileged me enough to have you in my life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. :hug:

Sweet dreams, everyone!

SONG!!!

I absolutely love this song, you guys. :sighs: It's the strangest thing. I'm so happy. It's like...God or...something! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrfeePKWGHA

New Bible Plan

Hi you guys!

Okay so God's been putting it on my heart to have a more serious time with Him every day than I do. So, I sortof resolved to read a bunch of books about Him! Right now, I'm reading 6 books by pastors and so forth. But, I wanted to invite you guys to do this new Bible plan with me. I'm going to start this thing of listening to messages every other day and if you want to join me you can! :)

http://www.cornerstonesimi.com/special/media_player.html

Go to this link and listen to the top message tomorrow. We'll start from the top and work down. Have fun and let me know what you think.

I love you all SO much! :hug:

Pictures

Yay...I'm going to post some pictures from camp...or at least attempt to.

Roommates being goofy.
Me, Elliot, and David!
We crammed 13 people in a 6-passenger vehicle. I'm the one going nuts on the back right.

Roommates again.
Blowing up balloons...yippee...I couldn't get the hang of it.

This is Pat...just being Pat...we love you!

Our counselor...a bit of an eccentric person. Jk! Jk!

Oh my gosh...I got this HUGE supper by accident this one night and I totally ate like a fourth of it...that's why I'm eating really messily with this overwhelmed expression.

This is the beautiful waterfall we hiked to. It was so gorgeous!

Our boys...Mitchel, Pat, and Elliot. The three stooges and life of the party by far.

Scared to death

I'm so scared I hurt the person I care about more than anyone else. I really, really hope I didn't. But...that's all I can think about right now.

This Is Gorgeous!

Wow, you guys. I read this devotional this morning and it was so beautiful I thought I would post it here. I love you all!!!! :hug:

It's Quiet. It's early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black. The world is still asleep. The day is coming.

In a few moments the day will arrive. It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day. The calm of the solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race. The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met.

For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands. It is now that I must make a choice. Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose. And so I choose.

I choose love...
No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness, I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I choose joy...
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I choose peace...
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that I may live.

I choose patience...
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so. Rather than complaining that the wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I choose kindness...
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I choose goodness...
i will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I will accuse. I choose goodness.

I choose faithfulness...
Today I will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates will not question my word. My wife will not question my love. And my children will never fear that they father will not come home.

I choose gentleness...
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice may it be only in praise. If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I choose self-control...
I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit will soar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ. I choose self-control.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek his grace. And then when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

Hiya Peeps!
Okay so I'm not sure why but I have a TON to say. So this will probably be the longest post in the world. But I'm really excited to write so hopefully this won't be boring. <3<3<3

Okay so...first of all. This is the MOST amazing song in the world. I just love it to death. You guys really should listen to it. I hope it makes you happy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Q9Gou6d9Uo

Now then...camp. Gosh how do I sum that one up? It was incredible. It was this beautiful bonding time and God gave me this amazing power to transform lives in His name. It seriously wasn't me, it was just His amazing grace. Jesus is so beautiful. I'm in love with Him.

Last night, my roommate was really struggling because there had been an inappropriate situation (only one person and you know who you are <3 knows about that) but it was really tricky and she was becoming very discouraged by the icky behavior. She is a very drained believer and her walk with God is sortof confused. Well, we just really prayed and sought God and He came down!!! I could feel the Spirit all over the room speaking and praying through me. I read several Scripture passages to her and heaven seriously began to open up. After praising the Lord in pretty much every way, she decided she would commit her life again to God. I was so, so, so privileged to be involved with that situation. It was beautiful! God sortof gave me this overview of the past two months and being able to share my testimony with her is part of what drew her to Jesus and that was gorgeous. I don't know why God allows me to be used in lives but I am in awe of His grace. I'm also so thankful to Him for pulling this gorgeous girl to Himself! Wow...yeah...that was awesome.

Now I'm going to try and give you a picture of how camp was. God was really, really kind to me and let me be the concertmaster. That was fun because I learned so much. I actually was so sick the first part of the week and discouraged because I am such a perfectionist and felt I couldn't get my music well enough, but God (my ultimate Prince) just totally covered for me. I learned a lot through the difficult which isn't really any surprise, knowing God.

There were so many funny times!!! Like the time I hiked up the side of a waterfall in barefeet with Mitchel or the time Abby and I skipped down the dorm hall at 2 in the morning singing "Yankee Doodle" with headlamps on. Of course there was sweetpea and the moshpit...gotta love it!!! And then there was going out on the roof at midnight when the guys came and let us out of our room so we could stargaze. It was all so magical! The only thing that could have made it more perfect would have been having you guys with me. :hug: So...I'll do the next best option and tomorrow I'll try to post some pictures. I wanted to do it tonight but I can't get it to work. Augh!!! So...yeah...til tomorrow. But...I did want to do this tag thing. I put it on my other blog but it has new answers this time and I want to tag anybody else with blogs to do it too. :) It's sooo fun!

Love you guys and goodnight.
Hannah <><

When was the last time you saw someone attractive?
Um...let's see. I just looked at an amazing blog and there was someone super attractive on there. So...3 minutes ago?

Where's your phone right now?
It's beside me...yay!

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Um...it'll be my last weekend before being a senior. Gosh! I should do something fun...maybe a sleepover or something.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broken it?
Yes, that happens a lot. It's okay, though. I break promises, too...we all do. It's part of this world! But I know One who has never broken His promises to me!!! <3

Last movie/DVD watched?
I watched a little bit of a not very good movie last night. Other than that, I just watched this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPpfb3_EFtQ.


Does anything hurt on your body?
Um...my knee still hurts but what's new? :) Me tinks me's heawlthy!


How are you?
Spiritually: Given incredible joy in the Savior. Emotionally: Satisfied completely. Physically: Exhausted Mentally: A little bit cloudy but very happy Overall: Doing really well!


Are you excited for next year?
Um...sure. Why not? :)


Is your room clean?
haha...are you kidding? When is my room EVER clean? :)


How many pillows do you sleep with?
Usually just one...more than that hurts my back. Unless it's allergy season...then two or three.

What are you doing?
Relaxing on the computer

I bet you miss somebody right now.
Yes! I miss everyone I'm not with...which would be almost everybody. But, I know we're all in each other's hearts. <3<3<3


What are you planning on doing after this?
I'm going to go to sleepy time.


Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yes...The Doctor's Return.


Who did you push last?
I slapped someone who was hurting my best friend last night...so probably him! lol.


Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
My mommy...I love her!


Do you own any band T-Shirts?
lol no. I do have a Disney Land Princess shirt, though. Yeah, I actually AM 17 I just don't always act like it! haha


What does your hair look like right now?
It's in two wrapped braids on the crown and the other hair is just loose past my shoulders. Yay it actually is getting longer...I'm so happy!


Has anyone ever told you that you were their best friend?
Yes...let's see...about 10 people! Yay! :) I love having lots of best friends!


Did you get hurt today?
Yes but that's okay.


When was the last time you felt upset?
Um...let's see. Probably last night when someone was not being very gentlemanly. It was a really cool time, though, because God taught me the meaning of strength and trusting in Him! He saved one unbeliever through it. What's new? Everything is gorgeous with God!


What are you looking forward to?
I'm looking forward to a special trip next summer.


Do you currently want something?
I want to fall much deeper in love with Jesus and receive His peace in new ways.


What was the last thing you had to drink?
Some really yummy strawberry lemonade. Mmm.


Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Anna Wright


Where are you?
In my basement


Do you like to walk in the rain?
Usually, when I'm not dressed up. I also love just standing in the rain and letting it pour down healing. So, so beautiful!


Do you like looking up at the stars?
Yes! It reminds me of Psalm 8:3-4. "When I consider the heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you take notice of him?" I also love looking at the moon at the same time as friends. :)


Do you think you are a nice person?
Not really.


Do you like swimming?
I LOVE to swim!!!!!!!


Have you ever swam in the ocean?
Oh yes. I love Florida's coast the best.


Do you go to school?
In the school year, yes. Although, technically I don't "go". School comes to me! :) I am spoiled!

Do you want to go to college?
If it is God's will for me. My heart is open to whatever He has. Actually, my dream school is Hillsong in Australia. I want to go there SO bad!


What do you want to be?
A violinist, possibly a music therapist, and an EMT.



Do you want kids?
Lots and lots of them! :) Probably 10.


Do you like going to the beach?
I love it. It is an experience that cannot be captured in words.


Who is the last person you went to the mall with?
I think my beautiful Mom.


Have you ever had any x-rays?
Yeah...twice. Once when I strained all the muscles in my left arm and the other time when I tore the main ligament in my leg last year. X-Rays are really fun!


Who do you hate right now?
Satan and the way He seeks to destroy all God's beautiful children!


Who is the last person you yelled at?
I can't really remember. Oh, I think I yelled yesterday but it wasn't at anyone. It was more like screaming because I thought I was going to fall off this cliff I was climbing.

Who was the last to cook you food?
My Mom.

Are you in a complicated relationship?
Several...I think complicated sortof defines relationships. :) I love complicated relationships, though. They are beautiful and full of lessons about the Lord's healing.

What did you do 2 nights ago?
I played a concert, went to a fancy dinner, and swam in a hot tub.

Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Abby Eichenberger


Does a hug make you feel better?
Oh my gosh, yes! Even e-mail hugs make me feel better. :)

How long ago did you hug someone?
Whoa...um...*thinking*. An hour ago probably.


Anything good happening tomorrow?
I'm not really sure. I get to sleep in really late. Yippee! And I get to try and make my Daddy get better from being sick. I really pray I can make him well.


Have you kissed more than ten people this year?
As in opposite sex...no. I have never kissed anyone and my heart's special desire is for my first kiss to be on my wedding day. As in other girls, my Dad, brother, etc. Yes of course I have! I love hugs and kisses.


Do you have unlimited texting?
No I don't...I just pretend to. lol.

Will you keep your last name when you get married?
If I get married before the time I get my career, then no. Otherwise, yes. :)


You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
I would like to get a cartilage piercing in my right ear.


Have you ever felt like someone of the opposite sex truly cared about you?
:sighs: yes


Who was the last friend you got into a big argument with?
I think probably Anna or Katie...but everyone made up. :) That is one thing I absolutely CANNOT stand...fighting. =P


Your phone is ringing. It's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
*pick up* "Oh my gosh! It's so beautiful to hear your voice. How are you doing, my darling?" lol.


Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?
Oh no! I don't want to get married until I'm at least 22 so it doesn't really make sense to date right now. I've actually tried that and all it causes is lots of pain for everyone involved. So now way! :)

Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today?
Yes...from Luke. <3


Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yes...the whole Norman family really, really bad!!! Luke. Grace. Abby. Mitchel. Jess. :)


Do you think two people can last forever?
I believe love will never end. It is a beautiful bond God created to last eternally, and when I fall in love, it will definitely be forever and ever.


When was the last time you had a late night phone call?
I've been gone so much I'm not really sure. I love late night calls, though. They make me so happy!


If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I don't think so! I love Bozeman. The only reason I would, would be to go to college. :) And I also think it would be so fun to live in Ireland but probably not forever. :)


Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
If he was gentle, kind, and incredibly caring with dark starry eyes I probably wouldn't be able to laugh. However, based on my track record I tend to fall for those who can make me laugh. So...I'm not sure. :)

Has anyone ever sung to you?
My amazing and beautiful mom sang to me every night when I was little. Thank you, Mummy! Also, my Daddy sang to me along with my brother and sister. And then lots of friends have sung to me. :) It's because people know music calms me down...which it does.

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
Definitely. I have some people like that. I love them and long for them to be free, but I do not trust them because of the sin they are involved in. However, I don't think you can be in love with a person without trusting them. My heart breaks for people who try to do that! May Jesus heal all those relationships.


Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
Well, I love being alone. I love a bunch of people. But I think the only person I could ultimately be with every moment and be happy is the Lord.


Last person to make you smile?
Probably Newsboys, actually, in their worship song. :)


Have you ever wasted too much time on a certain boy?
Yes, I have. It was very wrong of me to allow someone to distract me from Jesus! I asked God to forgive me and I am really finding Matthew 6:33 to define my relationships with guys at this point in my life. "But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."

How was last night?
It was difficult, but God was stronger! In many ways, last night was also absolutely gorgeous.

If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean?
Sometimes I get tired when I'm interacting with people and so I get really quiet. Also, sometimes when my heart is breaking inside I'm quiet.


Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes...last month. If it wouldn't have been for God and a few amazing people He gave me I know I would not be here today. Thank you (you know who you are).


Do you have trust issues?
On both sides. I sometimes trust people too easily and sometimes I don't trust people enough (because almost everyone is so precious and worthy of trust).


Was this a good weekend?
It was a lovely weekend. God really rained down and awakened me. He just showed me the big picture in some amazing ways and filled me more with His spirit. The Lord amazes me quite honestly.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I felt a little sick and cold but I was very joyous in my heart.

Yay. Hugs again, you guys. I'll really try to figure out how to post pics tomorrow. Goodnight! <3

Oh my gosh! I have so much to tell you guys. I miss you all so much. <3 I'm coming home tomorrow and am so, so happy to get home. I will write and update everyone soon.

You mean the world to me!
Hannah <><

Well, I don't really know what to post. I found internet for just a few minutes again at the dorm room. Upstairs, everyone is watching a movie and I'll probably go join them in a bit. I can really tell you are all praying for me...thank you so much! That means the world to me, seriously it does. I'm not really feeling well so if you want to keep praying about that'd be great. Thanks! <3<3<3

Oh my gosh! I don't even know where I would begin if it wasn't for all you guys. You are quite honestly the absolute best. I'm so blessed to know you guys...I see God in all of you!

This was sortof the verse the Lord brought to mind today. Jeremiah 29:12-13, "12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Just keep going after God, you guys. That is the biggest blessing you could ever have.

I love ya'll!
Hannah <><

Happy Saturday!

Hi Everyone!
It's Saturday and I just wanted to say how incredibly much I love all of you. I don't think I would be able to make it through this camp experience if it wasn't for your unending support, undying love, and constant prayers. I am blessed to have you guys as my friends!!! <3


Well...the music is...it's music. Yay! :) Finally it really is starting to come together. I've made some friends here and actually...oh my gosh you guys won't even believe this...I found out my roommate is a Christian! Yay! That has been amazing because we have been able to pray together a lot and just really seek God. She is so beautiful! I love her.

I know that times are not easy you guys and I guess we can't really expect them to be because life IS hard...and God is good. If you have the time, please watch this video by Louis Giglio that has really blessed my heart. Also, this verse is amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmJOko2Tygg

7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8 For this thing I sought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. 9 And he said to me, My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest on me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 2 Corinthians 12:7-9


I love you all so, so much.

Hannah

Just found internet!!!

Hi everyone!
Well, I'm SUPER excited right now because I just found a way to access my internet on campus. The internet is really slow and I will need to rely on my phone almost completely still but I CAN post once in awhile. :) Yay! Soo...my time here at camp so far has been...amazing, fun, beautiful, intense, sad, and maybe even a little bit frightening. I promise I usually don't get this emotional about camping but this music camp is really incredible in how much it forces me to lean into Jesus...which is exactly the kind of experience I desire to have.

The director has placed me as 1st chair in the chamber ensemble which is both a blessing and scary. As such, absolute perfection is not only demanded of me but expected. Anything else results in a large amount of yelling, dirty looks, and embarassment in front of the rest of the ensemble. It is definitely a good experience for me, as it causes me to push myself harder than I probably ever would have otherwise.

The kids here...oh my gosh there is no way to describe how precious they are! None of them are saved, therefore there is the unkind spirit that comes with the world, but my heart just longs for them to be set free in the arms of God. If for no other reason, I KNOW that is why I am here is so that I might be used in a life. If you think of it, please be praying that souls will be open to the gospel because I'm hoping to have the opportunity to share. If God DOES provide me with that opportunity, my heart's greatest desire is that I will not succumb to fear but be strengthened to taking advantage of the moment.

I am not going to lie! This isn't perhaps my chosen experience OR the most fun experience I have enjoyed. But it is a beautiful one! Last night I was reading Psalms 80 through 90 and my spirit was so blessed recalling how strong the Lord is and how much He is here with me. I remember His words to Moses, "Go and I will speak through you!" I know that is what He plans to do for me while here.

I love you and cannot begin to express how blessed I am to know each of you. Please know that I am uplifting you, my dearest friends in all the world, to a very strong and precious Savior. I am confident He will provide for your every need. Hugs all around!

By His Grace,
Your Hannah <><

Orivua!!!

To all those dearest to my heart,

I am leaving in a few moments for an incredible journey. It will be a wonderful trip and hopefully one that draws me deeper and deeper into the arms of my Jesus. I just wanted you to know where I am going...a music camp designed for high school students directed by Johan Jonsson, a Swedish violinist. I'm very excited but I know all those who will be going are not saved and the sexual scenes are often incredibly intense. Therefore, I am already looking to God for strength. Please pray for me as I will be almost exclusively shut out from the outside world these next 10-12 days. Pray that I will find God to be my all in all and that I will not cave in to the pressure many young men there like to put on us girls.

One highlight of the trip is that I won two violin solos to play with the chamber orchestra. If you would like to listen to them, please check out these pieces:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTBC734Lljk&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y4VE5Rxf6rQ

I have been thinking of this song for this special moment. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tvDQpaJBuo and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcHh7Id8XvM This is my choice, my desire, and my pledge. It breaks my heart to tell you, my darling ones, goodbye. I'm not sure why this is so emotional for me. But I know I will see you all very soon. You all mean the world to me!

Hannah <><

Songs

My two songs for the day:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtxkxI2FXPw&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAA0ASlh1HU&feature=av2n (God totally pretty much gave me this song today)

Needs prayer

Augh...I need prayer right now you guys. I just did something to really hurt my knee and I have a concert tonight and I'm like feeling sick. Like I'm cold sweating all over and dizzy. So I guess just pray for me to be a blessing and not focus on myself. :hugs:

I Need You, Jesus!

Wow...these have been a really interesting set of past 12 hours. But it has been so beautiful because through every moment I could sense Jesus' presence with me. I think I really didn't realize how desperately I needed Jesus. There is something really cool that TenthAvenueNorth said in their video blog. They said healing begins when we realize we cannot save ourselves! It's true, too. Like, I can't even begin to make the cut without God. I want all these frustrations bottled up inside of me to just come pouring out. I was given tongues again last night, which was so beautiful. I just found myself in Him...His Spirit dancing and singing over me. And I had a dream where I could completely feel God singing over me. It was so precious. Jesus is here...let's turn up the music. Let's start this divine romance!!!

Hands

I was just thinking about the million messages hands can send. Quite honestly, they can say pretty much anything, anywhere. They speak of the kind of life the person who owns them has known, they speak of marital commitment, they speak of scars in hearts and lives. Just look at hands...and you will know many things. Some of my favorite examples are captured in these.

But there is one pair of hands that cannot be captured in words...those belong to my Jesus! In those nail-pierced, scarred hands, there is a message of hope for the dying, peace for the lost, and beauty for those who are hurting. And it's those hands in which I find myself today!

I Love You!

Hello Everyone!
I just wanted to say 'hi' and welcome you to this blog. I'm so glad you joined. You are my dearest friends in the world and that's why you are following this blog. This blog will contain my journal entries and entries from my heart. I hope you are blessed as you read.

Lovingly Your Princess Journalist,
Jadelin